do you want a gap between your thighs, why:
omg yes!
who doesn’t!?
slim legs are so sexy and a gap between the thighs looks so good and i hate that my thighs touch and rub together when i walk and just eurgh.
I can’t wait to be able to see through them!
how do you deal with being around food:
I think I do okay but right now I’m not hungry haha
I do tend to overeat just for the sake of it, if it’s on my plate then I can’t help but eat it all!
But I’m not one of these people who can’t watch other people eat or anything like that.
I’m usually quite controlled.. even if I’m hungry.
It’s the boredom eating that really gets me
what excites you most about reaching your ugw:
I think being able to look at the guys who hurt me and know that they’re regretting it now.
Having the confidence to wear what I want and feel great.
Being healthier and having more energy.
Being happy with myself when I look in the mirror.
have you ever purged? describe your first experience:
yes,
I can’t remember the first time ever because it was about 10 years ago that I started having purging/anorexic problems.
But I basically used to eat nothing at all during the day, be forced to have dinner by my parents, feel that because I’d eaten something I might as well eat everything because I’d already failed then realise how disgusting I was for having eaten so much (half the time I’d eaten less than a normal meal anyway) and then I’d throw it all up again.
how do you feel about the terms proana and promia:
I’m not sure tbh… having been there myself I know that anorexia and bulimia are mental disorders that control your life.
I’m at a loss as to how people can be pro that…
but I understand the desire to be that skinny and I think that when people are desperate to be skinny they do turn to the option of starving themselves and I don’t think that can always be classed at anorexia
did the media play a role in you wanting to lose weight:
Not consciously but tbh how could it not!?
we’re bombarded with skinny, airbrushed models and pop stars on tv, magazines scrutinise peoples weights and point out cellulite and talk about bizarre celebrity diets.
Movies show couples in love with great sex lives and it’s what we all aspire to, it’s what we all want!
To be skinny and perfect and in love.
what was your lowest weight, how and why did you gain:
my lowest weight as an adult (so after my eating disorder) and when I say adult I’m saying from 16 because I’m only 19 haha
I think it was about 105 - 110 lbs
I gained weight because I quit smoking and starting eating more and I stopped counting calories and watching what I ate and just let myself eat what I wanted without worrying because I was happy at the time and just blind to all the weight I was gaining
